The book I can read in repeat.

 Sept 19, 2024. 1906 hrs

"Tapi beda-beda ya tiap orang.. jatuh cinta sama tulisan tuh menurut gw hampir sama kaya jatuh cinta ama orang, wkwkw.."

i quoted this from rani. i couldnt agree more. i love her writing at the first sight. 

this book "bittersweet" by susan cain has been taking over my breath in the last 3 days. bought it on saturday night, sleepless nights, finished it on monday night. when i couldnt sleep i would open the book. this book helps me to deviate  attention and withdraw myself from social media. the more i dived into the book, the more i realized she stereos ideas that i thought no one would understand. i can related most of the chapters. its about losing, accepting, and rebuilding with the left over scratch. most of the time i would say, "been there." "been there." "been there."

in between patients, while waiting for the anesthesiologist prior surgery, when i got stuck in traffic jam, i would just read the book. very helpful. its fascinating.

i think most people can related on how she experienced. 

what i learned this from the book:

various types of people will come and go. they were once a stranger. then you will see something in common between us, that connects and clicks, and you usually experienced certain positive vibes that eventually made you feel long for them. they in some way or the other, shaped you.

every living things die, the same way people you love will leave. like leaf, sometime they are there for one chapter of your life. they fell in autumn. sometime, they stays in your happy times, strong enough to hold on to, like a branch. but it collapse in heavy wind/storm. but root people thou, the persist. they came as a stranger but they are there standing in many battles you have been through. some cultivates your energy, transferring it into your self development. some makes you feel weary, drain the energy, at some point you just need to step away for your own equilibrium.

at the first time i bought the book, i aimed for understanding other people's sorrow and how to deal with it. turns out i learned about myself. the writing was not much of advance semantics, but that doesnt degrade the message. she even reminded me of my writing in times of corona, when people dont take their significant other for granted. because we just couldnt promise tomorrow.

literally speaking, this is the book i can read in repeat. just like a good song i would rewind until i got tired. i would just gulp it, i do not resist myself only take a sip at a time. i would be okay when the cup is finished, unlike the dissatisfaction of a cup being half emptied. 

i enjoy the book so much to the point i dont want people to know the book, because i wanna own the romance myself.