#7

sangat mudah mencintai Tuhan yang memang begitu sempurna,
yang tidak tercela, yang tidak pernah salah dan jatuh.

yang jauh lebih sulit adalah mencintai sesama manusia,
dengan plural ketidaksempurnaan dan kecacatan.

tidak ada kebijaksanaan tanpa keinginan untuk mencintai,
manusia mengetahui apa-apa yang mereka coba untuk ketahui,
dan tidak ada pengetahuan tanpa cinta untuk tahu

tanpa belajar mencintai ciptaan-Nya, manusia tidak bisa mengerti atau mencintai Penciptanya.

for fear of being punished, or for love. Obedience that comes from love of others is a thousand times stronger than fear of punishment. (Mahatma Ghandi, 1869–1948) 

#6

sept 23, 1743 hrs

hell is here and now. so is heaven. quit worrying about hell or dreaming about heaven, as they both present inside this very moment. every time we fall in love, we ascend to heaven. every time we hate, envy, or fright someone, we tumble straight into the fires of hell.
-ES


an old besty called only 20 minutes before midnight. i picked up the phone, only to shut the ring off, i didnt feel like talking, i was sleepy and tired. i let him talked, and i listened, if it wasnt only i heard mumbles, i couldnt recall his sayings. the conversation mostly filled up with my 'hmm', 'ya', and 'go on', and it ended up with nothing i could recall in the next morning. one thing frightened me though, which the only i remembered was that the statement he  made about me cannot distinguish 'giving love' and 'being kind.' i wonder if there any difference, but to him, there is a clear difference between those. the reason which i couldnt recall will be remained unknown, i guess. i dont wanna know the difference. let those stay blurred to me.

baru ngebaca postingan asha jaman dulu. semoga langgeng!

#5: for those who made my day!

sept 19, 2342hrs

thank you for those who made my day happier:

fahrani, thx for late-night talks, secret sacred stories, freedom to express and extraordinary ridiculous moments
astri, thx for late-night talks, a person i can be spoiled as much as i want, i can rely on without any guilt-feeling
nadhila, thx for hasan's stories, contagious laughs, between now and then deep insights
bu atih, thx for being such an understanding ibu kantin yg mau ngebikinin gw bubur due to gigi gw yg sakit
pak cecep, thx for being such a wise pak satpam who was reminding me that fear scares only minds, go pray and believe in urself.
reza fahlevi, thx for a long,in-purpose-killing-time talks about the most lively places on earth
mikoriza, thx for buying me roti suyi pagi2 even though i knew u had no breakfast yet
mishbah, thx for being such a nice 24 hrs friends yg ga pernah marah kalo ditelp in such an odd times

the above list is not in order. because they have special amount of cares. thanks for some of you whose names arent mentioned because i simply dont have the guts to write yours down. for you, rules #5
most of problems of the world stem from linguistic mistakes and simple misunderstandings. Dont ever take words at face value. when you step into the zone of love, language as we know it becomes obselete. that which cannot be put into words can only be grasped through silence. 

may Allah gives blessings upon you all.

#4

sept 19. 0636 am

i must confess that this is addictive!

intellect and love are made of different materials. intellect ties people in knots and risk nothing, but love dissolves all the tangles and risk everything. intellect is always cautious and advises, "Beware too much ecstasy," whereas love says, "Oh, never mind! Take the plunge!" intellect does not easily breakdown, whereas love can effortlessly reduce itself to rubble. but treasures are hidden among ruins. a broken heart hides treasures.

good morning, monday :)

#3

sept 18, 0341hrs

patience does not mean passively  endure. it means to be farsighted enough to trust the end result of a process. what does patience mean? it means to look at the thorn and see the rose, to look at the night and see the dawn. impatience means to be so shortsighted as to not be able to see the outcome. The lovers of God never run out of patience, for they know that the time is needed for the crescent moon to become full. 

-ES

#1

for despite what some people say, love is not only a sweet feeling bound to come and quickly go away. and when we are in love we need to wait for forty days to make sure of our feelings.


How we see God is a direct reflection of how we see ourselves. If God brings to mind mostly fear and blame, it means there is too much fear and blame welled inside us. If we see God as full of love and compassion, so are we

-ES.