worthless

'you cannot pleased everybody'

'ga perlulah kamu mendamaikan dunia'

tau apa yg gw rasakan every single time i attempted to make someone happy?

i felt worthless.

this probably a way for me to collect and spread good deeds.

but hell, i will find another way. being nice is tiring, self-deteriorating.

considering, trying to cope with feelings, thats...tremendous sacrifice

emang bener, ga ada yang bisa dimenangkan di dunia ini,

layaknya kita selalu kalah oleh alam.

matilah kita diserang tsunami. tetap kedinginan di saat hujan

rasanya mencoba menyenangkan hati orang lain itu, seperti berusaha dingin di bawah terik. 

useless.

so friends, if tomorrow i stop pleasing you guys, or be such an honest pain in the ass

it is not because i hate you, 

but i love you too much till i hate myself forgetting my own need.