hide feelings.

me: "life has never been easy, but it always good"


a friend: "life is not always good. our 'good' feelings may oscillate to other person's sadness. like jealousy."

this only a part of a small conversation. emphasize the lesson my mom told me over years ago, which i havent find out how, to hide feelings, like The Queen. her smiles implied either pleasure or grief.

its a good thing, i think to start to hide feelings. if we cry, some may have pity on us, some may think we are weak, which is lame and shows a little of feminine views. if we laugh to free, some may think its contagious and laugh along, some may think that we arent sensitive enough to look around, looking for who are sad, and may hold our laughter a bit.

inilah kenapa mikirin orang itu melelahkan. we cannot win everybody's heart. some hearts may worth fighting, some may not.

talking about heart will only end this story up, you know, with these sparkling stars comes out of the laptop, with slides of conversation or mute scenes which had passed but the smell lingers. haha.

this might be why we should hide feelings, when it is being expressed too excessive, it hurts when life turn out the other way, when it goes shallow, it annoys so much.

this post may fit the rubbish can, but still, this perhaps a place where hungry hearts find something to eat :)