Rush hour rage

 Oct 23, 2024 1727 hrs

Ish. Road traffic in Jakarta definitely suppressing immunity. Cant imagine how people can live in peace while driving and spend 2-4 hours on the road trapped in traffic jam. Thankfully i decide to work only for certain radius from home. Less than 30-45 mins, 1 hr top, to get to each hospital in rush hour, and 15 min in the middle of the night.

If no car/motorcycle/bus got into my nerve, i really enjoy the road. Good music, sing a long with my sember voice. 

But. Big but. Road can ruin my mood like an immature on puberty if ada orang songong yg cutting my road improperly. Ugh, i can hunt that vehicle like a dog, honking for 2-3 minute straight right behind their tail. Kaya sore ini. Ada wuling airev bermental motor nyelap nyelip seenak jidat. Gw ikutin ampe rumahnya kalo bisa. 

One time, i got out from the car, i smashed in gentle way at this driver window in front of me  (stupidly leaving all the guard behind, getting out from the car is very childish way to confront). Only to say, "ga punya sim lo ya? Tolol bgt nyetir lo." Untung ga direkam. Aduh i could be that uneducated. 

Lately a lot of videos of this outrage drivers. I need to repress the annoyance of car driver bermental geng motor yang songong. Kaya jalan punya bapak lu. 

I learned that from my dad btw lol. He is very loud in driving, short tempered. I thought he was a macho by the way he drove and chased other car. 

And my language copied my mom. She yelled all the time when she drives. Dont get me wrong, i totally loved the both. Theyre like my superheroes in driving, i took them as role model. The bad one. But i liked it. I like the adrenaline of chasing obnoxious car/bus.

Tidak patut dicontoh.

Once my husband told me (the waaaayyyy more polite driver who brakes even for flat bumps), if i dont stop this habit, i could put my life on danger. Because whatever car/motorcycle/bus i chase, i might stimulate their anger. The anger of people out of their minds. Because the street is where people let their steam from office/work/house off. A lot of nasty thing.

I need to repent. and when i told the story tonight, he said itd be better off to set a dashcam. So i can control language and behaviour.