august 19, 2013 1006 hrs
5 days to UKDI and agitated aura comes.
dear Allah, please forgive me for forgetting.
"Have you seen those who takes his own lust as his god? And Allah, knowing him as such, left him astray, and sealed his hearing and his heart, and put a cover on his sight. Who then will guide him Allah? Will you not then remember?" (QS 45: 23)
but then,
"Verily, those who say: 'Our Lord is Allah.' and thereafter stand firm and straight on the Path, on them shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve." (QS 46:13)
May Allah forgive.
wedding band
July 29, 2013. 1846
Allah itu sudah menentukan kita berjodoh dengan siapa kan?
Iya.
then fear nothing, stop worrying.
but then we gotta understand that jatuh cinta dan jodoh are two different things.
so stop falling for people unless s/he's marrying you.
set a meeting for parents of two persons doesnt make that they are jodoh. they might be only expanding networking.
but if they do meant to be together, they'll end up together. with or without considerations.
Allah itu sudah menentukan kita berjodoh dengan siapa kan?
Iya.
then fear nothing, stop worrying.
but then we gotta understand that jatuh cinta dan jodoh are two different things.
so stop falling for people unless s/he's marrying you.
set a meeting for parents of two persons doesnt make that they are jodoh. they might be only expanding networking.
but if they do meant to be together, they'll end up together. with or without considerations.
dear us, 2008.
dear 2008,
at the end of the day,
remember the days when we were close to the edge and we wonder how we made it through the night,
the end of the day,
remember the way we stayed so close till the end,
we'll remember, it was me and you
inget jaman skripsi? jaman segala serba dadakan, those has passed. UKDI too shall pass.
we will never know how strong we are,until being strong is the only choice we have.
we proceed, dek koas.
perjalanan masih panjang, selalu ada yang kelam, selalu ada yang bahagia :)
again, temporary.
"ALL things in life is TEMPORARY.
If going well, enjoy it, they won't last forever.
If going wrong, don't worry. they can't last long."
this used to give me great impact, my readers got inspired by those phrase.
i wonder why words dont affect me as much as they used to.
If going well, enjoy it, they won't last forever.
If going wrong, don't worry. they can't last long."
this used to give me great impact, my readers got inspired by those phrase.
i wonder why words dont affect me as much as they used to.
mediocre
july 6, 2013. 1020 hrs
semalem nadhila ke kamar, we got some time untuk catching up with each others stories.
then, she came up with story that a friend, she refused to mention the name, menanyakan kenapa sejak obgin gw berubah. bahasanya sih gw jd less care, kalo diinterpretasiin shallowly sih semacam ignorant kali ya..
jawaban nadhila, si herdinda lagi bosen ama perkoasan.
jawaban gw dalem hati sih, mungkin karena gw udah ga mencintai hal yang dulu gw cintai.
lucu juga ngeliat hal yang dulu i had been fell madly sekarang jadi sesuatu yang mediocre.
prioritas berubah.
for better or worse? some get my better, some get my worse.
untuk diri gw sendiri sih, idk. i felt numb mostly.
mazel tov.
*i know i need to me more positive. :) at least im staying on medicine, thats a good thing.
semalem nadhila ke kamar, we got some time untuk catching up with each others stories.
then, she came up with story that a friend, she refused to mention the name, menanyakan kenapa sejak obgin gw berubah. bahasanya sih gw jd less care, kalo diinterpretasiin shallowly sih semacam ignorant kali ya..
jawaban nadhila, si herdinda lagi bosen ama perkoasan.
jawaban gw dalem hati sih, mungkin karena gw udah ga mencintai hal yang dulu gw cintai.
lucu juga ngeliat hal yang dulu i had been fell madly sekarang jadi sesuatu yang mediocre.
prioritas berubah.
for better or worse? some get my better, some get my worse.
untuk diri gw sendiri sih, idk. i felt numb mostly.
mazel tov.
*i know i need to me more positive. :) at least im staying on medicine, thats a good thing.
we think we have time,
june 6, 2013. 0845
it was over a week ago : last night shift in internal medicine department.
selesai stase IPD itu seperti mengeluarkan setengah beban jiwa, apalagi sadar sepenuhnya bahwa selasa malam itu seminggu lalu adalah my last jage!
jaga terakhir gw di ruangan dahlia, yang isinya bapak ibu yang menderita tuberkulosis plus plus, plus sakit liver, plus resisten obat TB jadinya mesti nyoba obat yang has higher strength. kalo ketularan...ya namanya rizkinya, mudah2an engga.
so, it was a pretty peaceful night shift. gw ditugasin observasi si ibu I, di bed 6 kamar 1, et causa si ibu punya gagal ginjal dan penurunan kesadaran.. keluarganya udah ga mau si ibu diapa2in (seharusnya si ibu di cuci darah), dan minta pulang paksa, against medical advice. pas gw lagi istirahat makan malem, pak boby (yang menurut gw sangat *if not, terlalu, oke sebagai perawat dahlia) nganter si ibu ke mobil keluarganya di igd depan. pas gw istirahat makan malem, ternyata si ibu istirahat selama2nya di perjalanan menuju mobilnya. innalillahi..
at first to me its another death. its the same with the previous death, and the upcoming death the day after that, but then the difference was i read this in that precise night, its like the dead warned me:
"its such a shame to waste time. we always think we have much of it." - one more day, by: mitch albom.
may she rest in peace.
it was over a week ago : last night shift in internal medicine department.
selesai stase IPD itu seperti mengeluarkan setengah beban jiwa, apalagi sadar sepenuhnya bahwa selasa malam itu seminggu lalu adalah my last jage!
jaga terakhir gw di ruangan dahlia, yang isinya bapak ibu yang menderita tuberkulosis plus plus, plus sakit liver, plus resisten obat TB jadinya mesti nyoba obat yang has higher strength. kalo ketularan...ya namanya rizkinya, mudah2an engga.
so, it was a pretty peaceful night shift. gw ditugasin observasi si ibu I, di bed 6 kamar 1, et causa si ibu punya gagal ginjal dan penurunan kesadaran.. keluarganya udah ga mau si ibu diapa2in (seharusnya si ibu di cuci darah), dan minta pulang paksa, against medical advice. pas gw lagi istirahat makan malem, pak boby (yang menurut gw sangat *if not, terlalu, oke sebagai perawat dahlia) nganter si ibu ke mobil keluarganya di igd depan. pas gw istirahat makan malem, ternyata si ibu istirahat selama2nya di perjalanan menuju mobilnya. innalillahi..
at first to me its another death. its the same with the previous death, and the upcoming death the day after that, but then the difference was i read this in that precise night, its like the dead warned me:
"its such a shame to waste time. we always think we have much of it." - one more day, by: mitch albom.
may she rest in peace.
than candy cake..
may 16, 2013. 1057 hrs
memories arent stay there longer when it is fated to fade.
neither text, photographs, even mind.
let us say, brain injury, or simply misplace your favorite pictures,
or blog error, erasing old stories that you have tried so hard to keep.
if it is meant to be yours again, if it is meant to reappear after a long lost
it will pop up in front of you. out of nowhere, anytime, even in the most awkward one.
and when it come back to you, sweet memories are sweeter than a candy cake.
like the 1001 old text messages, in form of some of the best and unforgettable pictures i have had in 24 years of life,
memories arent stay there longer when it is fated to fade.
neither text, photographs, even mind.
let us say, brain injury, or simply misplace your favorite pictures,
or blog error, erasing old stories that you have tried so hard to keep.
if it is meant to be yours again, if it is meant to reappear after a long lost
it will pop up in front of you. out of nowhere, anytime, even in the most awkward one.
and when it come back to you, sweet memories are sweeter than a candy cake.
like the 1001 old text messages, in form of some of the best and unforgettable pictures i have had in 24 years of life,
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