July 22nd 2018 1903 hrs
just finished my 24 hrs shift, which almost certainly prolonged to 30 hrs ++ as always. i dont know how many new patients, but last night was definitely pain. excruciating pain.
we are legal criminals if i may say. yes, i did not even try to defend myself.
i have no idea why am i ended up in such negative surrounding. from tons of choices in my hand, i decided, sadly fully conscious about what i took, to dip myself in this institution, this hospital. i couldve happier outside, i wouldve do things i love, something i can embrace positively. rather than tightening my chest in this tricky sinful area i should have never commited.
there are good people in there, yes indeed, but they are just playing the same tricks, the same rituals, believing God would have been nicer because the condition forces us to do so.
to me, i always have alternative to choose better circumstances, that may be better for my health, better to my relationships and networking, instead of killing my character piece by piece one at a time for over 4 years, and god forbid probably years after school.
and as i posted the last time, who made your day? your chief. who ruined your day? your chief. dear god, please help me so my sons and daughters far alike from people like those who only knows their own perception, have no consideration of others. jadikanlah anak-anak saya pemimpin yang bijaksana.
what ashamed that this well-rooted education in well known institution ended up producing rotten doctors with no hearts. i dont wanna ended up trying to change the world to be a better place, i just want to have peace.
dear bad guys, Allah tidak buta.. so may you rest in peace.
Who made your day?
18.48. Jul 18th 18
your chief. period.
they have been there. in my position. sending patients yang lucunya, no one wanted to take care. serba ribet. but then i have my chiefs giving support emotionally and physically. i cannot complain no more..
as Lendl said
"you need to keep finding little sparkles to keep you going"
i like being in outpatient clinic.
i do talking to some who were well educated, some irritatedly and need extra patience.
i discuss my patients with my supervisor, which most of the time, i found myself extremely clueless. i have never read what theyve been saying. i did not make time.
one day i need a turning point. not now please. i wanna enjoy.
your chief. period.
they have been there. in my position. sending patients yang lucunya, no one wanted to take care. serba ribet. but then i have my chiefs giving support emotionally and physically. i cannot complain no more..
as Lendl said
"you need to keep finding little sparkles to keep you going"
i like being in outpatient clinic.
i do talking to some who were well educated, some irritatedly and need extra patience.
i discuss my patients with my supervisor, which most of the time, i found myself extremely clueless. i have never read what theyve been saying. i did not make time.
one day i need a turning point. not now please. i wanna enjoy.
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