Closer to God

March 23, 2017.

hi..

well, actually, HI!

it's me again. my last post was pretty....savage. if you are a mother and having the same baby blue or post partum depression, as i diagnosed myself, you do probably understand.

but hey! here i am, LOVING every single second of breastfeeding right now. Sakha is now more talkative and emotionally lovable. and i declare now that all these mother work is joyful.. erm, except part of running around try to make him eat. but he grows, he gained weight, i do not worry that much anymore. he is not a fragile little tiny baby anymore. so i passed. and that suicidal post, get over it. past is passed.

H-10 SIMAK UI

i've been spending one and a half years interning in obgyn dept UI.. in ten days, i will try my luck. i would love to use luck, as i believe God decides in most of my life options. im just pursuing what i thought God might tell me.

i believe, like i have always believed, i will get what ever best for me, and now not only me, also sakha, also mas irsyad, our parents.

so i will study. (and it has to be at full speed, dinda!), and let Allah do the rest.