Declaration of death

May 31, 1915 hrs.

#1
I was supposed to be thrilled, empathic, nervous. For my first, declaring, breaking bad news to the family didnt make me agitated.

#2
I told one patient about he has a possibility of having hiv/aids. Between telling brutal truth or hope, i chose brutal truth.

Cara melembutkan hati adalah shalat malam. Its been....
May Allah forgive

11/12


May 29, 2014

Ngeliat edisi embracing buton-nya fulki, i run out of my fingers if mind wont stop do life mathematical comparison.

Its my year and thats fulkis year.

Di tengah sahara indramayu kaya gini, gw lebih closely in touch with trucks n buses while fulki with her ocean yacht (lebay sih kalo dibilang yacht, tp di mata gw yg penuh jealousy, all those trips seemed heavenly joyful, as in trip with a yacht).

Okay. okay, lets list up targets:
1. Invitations. Dengan jarak sgini, one thing i can be helpful adalah dengan nyicil nama teman2 dan alamat mereka. Biar ga repot di akhir for the upcoming event.
2. Beli timbangan. No need to mention, but ofcourse i have target! *yosh
3. Be supportive ke mas irsyad. He's been dealing with parents, work, parents again, jakarta-bandung. So i need to reduce ego and all the whinings. -_-. I had been a good selfishless, haha, used to be.
4. Nonton bioskop di cirebon, culinary di indramayu, minum es kelapa di laut, naik kapal di laut jawa, ke pulau biawak, so far thats all i can think of.
5. Ikut operasi dokter eka lagi :")
6. Jd asisten 1 op sc.
7. Khatam al quran sebelum akad.
8. Hafal arrahman.
9. Pake sunblock tiap hari! Jgn malas!
10. Dont take life too seriouslylah. Dont forget to enjoy.

I put aside idealism for a while ya. I wanna blog to relax.

i am 25 and engaged.

May 29, 2014

It feels like series of good stories written for me.

I dont wanna write about him because i expect to understand beyond words. I wanna write along with him. to fill each other's blanks. To construct the most optimal out of us. Doubling, multiplying the power to create what is greater than oneself can conduct.

May Allah ease us, may Allah permit us to proceed.

May we never losing ourselves in the process of loving.